TTC girls, I think I have lost it...:(?

Sweetheart, take a breath.....calm down. I know it doesn't feel like it but it will be okay; you will be okay. I went through that a little over a year ago when it took me over a year to have my son. Every month I was so excited only to be crushed by negative pregnancy tests. Everybody around me was expecting which only made things worse. My hubby and I started fighting because things were so tense. Finally I got pregnant (and after a previous miscarriage). We had a beautiful baby boy in November. Can you believe I accidently got preggo again 7 months later and I'm 5 months along with another son. I know how hard it is to want it soooo badly and it not be happening. But honey, calm down and try to keep your head up. Also, I bought a Clear Blue digital fertility monitor. It shows a smiley face on your 2 fertile days when you should have and sad faces the other days. The first month I used this I turned up preggo! If you doc thinks its an imbalance, that isn't necessarily a big deal either. They can give you artificial hormones to balance you out. Get tested though so you don't have to keep wondering "what's wrong with me?!" Your beating yourself up for something completely out of your control. Big hugs and blowing baby dust your way. It will happen, you'll see!!!!!!!